I went to Dr. Feelgood's office on Wednesday for a routine follow up and a medication refill. When I first arrived, the PA...whom I love...came in and assessed me. Then, what came out of her mouth next had me bawling and having an instant panic attack.
She told me that after discussing my case with Dr. Feelgood, he felt that he had explored every treatment option and that this was basically the end of the road. Then she said she wasn't sure if he even intended on following through with my medication refills.
I am on a number of medications currently, which I am not proud to announce, but one is an extended release opiate. One that Dr. Feelgood prescribed to me back in Febuary because nothing else was effective. This isn't really effective either as far as head pain, but it does help tremendously with my joint and muscle pain and stiffness.
So...I totally panicked for a couple of reasons. #1...I was flabbergasted my doctor was giving up on me...and #2...if he did not refill my meds, I could and most likely would go through potentially dangerous withdrawal from going cold turkey.
The PA went out and brought Dr. Feelgood in to see me immediately. He instantly put my mind at ease. He said he was not giving up on me as a patient, but that he was incredibly frustrated that the insurance companies override his medical recommendations. Specifically the neurostimulator trial and the stay at the clinic in Michigan...and that he was out of any other options to give me. He also stated, as any good doctor would, that he could not continue to prescribe me endless amounts of narcotics indefinately. Which, obviously, I understood and completely agreed with. So, that being said...he is bascially insistent upon me changing my insurance when open enrollment at my employer comes around in Novemeber. I had thought about doing that when they refused my stay in Michigan, and now even more so that they refused the stimulator trial. He agrees to continue seeing me every 6 weeks and refilling my medications until I switch insurance companies and go to Michigan.
I am skeptical about going to the clinic as I have heard mixed reviews about their care. But, I guess I will never know unless I go myself.
Either way...I need to make a change. I cannot continue on this path of pill popping.
So far nothing else has worked. Not Occipital Nerve Blocks, not Botox, not Medial Branch Blocks, not Radiofrequency Nerve Ablation, not medication, nothing.
While massage and chiropractics give me relief during the session, as soon as I am done with the treatment, I am back to where I started from...and alot of times in more pain.
So as of now...I plan on continuing with my medication and ice packs and occasional massages and praying that one day relief will come.