My days off from work are supposed to be lazy, relaxing and stress free. At least that's what I wish they were. These days...not so much. I have been running around just as much when I am off work as I do when I am at work. And when I do...only bad things come from that. Jesse actually scolded me this morning for it. My days off lately have been spent at doctor's appointments, nail appointments, hair appointments, Brendan's orthodontist appointments, Zachary's parent/teacher conferences, waiting in car rider lines, doing homework, researching things for work (that's another post), learning how to knit, trying to have time for reading & blogging (which I obviously have neglected)...and preparing for Easter Sunday. Whew...I am exhausted just typing all of that. In all honesty...I am not coping well with my overwhelming schedule and my never-ending pain. I have totally been disregarding my health. My yoga routine has fallen by the wayside...and my diet is anything but healthy...if and when I eat at all. Most of the time, food is so unappealing to me...and ends up making me nauseous. *BIG SIGH*
The other day at work, some co-workers of mine were discussing another employee's migraines. I just sat there, quietly listening...when one of them said to me..."Maybe so & so should get the stimulator instead...you seem fine." Now I took this 2 ways. First...I was actually relieved to hear my peers think I am "fine", as I am always paranoid people can see through my act. I try very hard not to complain at work. Secondly, my "act" seems to have bitten me in the ass. Because, apparently, if I don't complain...people assume I am no longer hurting. Which is so far from the truth, especially lately. I feel like I am on a downward spiral.
On to more exciting news...I FINALLY learned how to knit. YouTube is actually good for something! So here is my latest creation...for the wee ones I catch at work!