As I read through everyone else's blog posts and facebook comments, I am kind of thinking..."What's wrong with me?"
Everyone is writing about how thankful they are this season for this or for that.
I don't feel that way.
I feel bitter right now.
I feel like shit nearly everyday...and I am not thankful.
I know I sound selfish. I know there are millions of others out there in the world suffering and starving and unable to enjoy their families. But I cannot help it.
I have tried to make a list of all the things I am grateful for, like so many of you did over the holiday, but everytime I write it, I feel like a phony and erase it. Because deep down I feel like having a pity party for myself and want to throw a temper tantrum like a three year old.