Yesterday I finally went back to work. I was nervous the night before and when I woke. Scared I couldn't get through a 12 hr day with no pain. Once I got there though, I was ok. I work with such a supportive group of people, I knew I could do it. Plus Jesse had told me to call him immediately if I felt I couldn't get through the day and not to force myself. He even said if you have to quit..."I'll get a second job." Obviously I don't want to quit my job, but having the knowledge that I could walk away if I absolutely needed to was comforting in a weird way. We were pretty busy at work so all the running around and catching babies left little time for me to acknowledge my head. I guess working is a good thing for me. When I am home, I tend to notice every little twinge of pain and dwell on it. I have realized over the past 3 mths that I have no coping skills of my own. I may need to get help with that. As a nurse, I can teach my patients copings skills, but I can't wrap my head around it when it comes to my own problem. So after being at work for over 12 hrs...it's an understatement to say I was exhausted. I literally felt sick from fatigue driving home. But I am taking it slowly, only working 2 days a week to re-adjust. And I remained headache free for most of the day...only needing to drink some caffiene and take an 800mg motrin.
I just came back from an appt. with Dr. E. It went well. Now I kind of feel like I don't want to go see another Specialist at this point. We had a really good talk and made a new plan of action. Plus, he said if we don't progress, he is sending me to Tampa to the "House" of migraines. I did actually see the dr. he is referring to once, but she agreed with his plan of care, so I never went back. I also got a round of Botox while I was there. Still not quite sure if it really helps, but my insurance covers it, the dr. believes in it...and it leaves me wrinkle free so I keep doing it. In a few minutes I am going to take a Sumatriptan injection with a Xanax to try and banish this headache that is now starting to creep in.